things do not change, we change.

I saw a quote from Henry David Thoreau today that said 'things do not change, we change', and it made me think about how much I've changed since last year. 

Last year I was very relaxed and was holding a grudge against one of my 'friends' who now is one of my closest friends again now. It's strange how we can hate someone one second, then love them the next. I was looking forward to going back to school and seeing my friends, but this year, I really can't be bothered to see anyone. I think I've changed a lot emotionally as well. I've had weeks where I've been extremely sad, a sad I had never experienced before. I've also become more self concious. but hopefully that will change.

It's strange how little things can change without you realising, but then when you look back on something as a whole, it's changed dramatically. Like your height - you don't realise yourself growing as most of your friends and people around you will grow with you, but then when you measure yourself you've grown a lot. 

I hope this year at school I wont change for the worst, but just be better than I was this year.

See you next time,

Maia x

best friends and drifting apart.

So I am back at school on Wednesday, and I'm not too excited about it. I mean yes, school can be fun sometimes, and school can be boring, but most of the time your just stuck for six hours with a bunch of people you don't really like. I'm going into Year 9, and I have no idea how it is going to turn out. I guess I am hoping for the best.

I have to admit, I can be a bit of a confusing person to understand sometimes, so this might be my fault, but sometimes at school I feel a bit lonely. I have friends, it's just I don't have a best friend or someone who knows everything about me. I have had best friends, but this past year at school was meant to be when people find their true friends, and I seem to have lost some. Okay, maybe I am over exaggerating when I say that I have lost friends, it's more like grown apart from them and I didn't and still haven't really known how to feel about it. 

When I first came to secondary school, I had a best friend, but we had a fight and we didn't really talk for about 3 months. Over the summer I had talked to a girl in my form a lot and we became really good friends, and she became my new best friend. The girl I had a fight with, we were okay now, but she had also found a new best friend. I did miss her though we did talk and were actually still good friends. But soon I started growing apart from my current best friend, and she found new friends, and I was left alone. Everyone started finding their friend groups and their best friends and I never really did. I was kind of floating around the groups, talking to everyone in my form. I was friends with most people, but I never really felt like I belonged anywhere.  Everyone has someone to be partners with in class, and I felt like I may have been a second choice to my friends. 

But at the beginning of Year 8, I had met a girl in one of the other forms who I sat next to in Science and French. She was really nice and it turned out we had a lot in common, almost everything. The trouble is I have no idea if I'm going to be in any of her lessons this year. I'm not doing French this year, and I wont be in her Science class, so I have no idea if I will get to talk to her, and I'm worried that we will drift apart because she has other friends too.

I'm not saying that I want someone to myself that is only and always friends with me, I'm just saying that I want someone who will understand me without me having to explain, that likes the same stuff that is my best friend, and just my best friend.

I'm not lonely, I mean I do have friends and I'm friends with everyone, I just want a best friend.

See you next time.
Maia x

hello there.

So my name is Maia. This is my blog, and this post is about me.

-My name is Maia.
-I am a teenager living in London.
-My birthday is 22nd May.
-I have a sister called Clea, and a half-brother called Kyle.
-I play guitar, ukulele and (can kinda play) piano.
-I love reading, fangirling, singing, playing guitar, acting and various other things.
-My favourite TV shows are Doctor Who, Glee, Sherlock, How I Met Your Mother, Downton Abbey & Friends.
-My favourite singers/bands are Ed Sheeran, Taylor Swift, Demi Lovato, Ben Howard, Daughter, Two Door Cinema Club, Bastille, Imagine Dragons, Bribry & The Lumineers.
-My favourite books are Harry Potter - JK Rowling, The Hunger Games - Suzanne Collins, The Mortal Instruments/Infernal Devices - Cassandra Clare, The Fault in Our Stars/Looking for Alaska - John Green.
-My favourite movies are Little Manhattan and Titanic.
-I want a cat, but my dad is allergic to them.
-My favourite colour is blue.
-I spend most of my time on the internet - watching YouTube videos, going on Tumblr, Twitter, Polyvore and getting lost.
-I enjoy History, Maths and Music at school.
-I am in secondary school.
-I am mentally married to Josh Hutcherson, and several fictional characters such as Peeta Mellark, Jace Herondale, Simon Lewis, Jem Cairstairs, Will Herondale, Gabriel Lightwood (basically every character from Cassandra Clare).

And that's a bit about me for you. I'm not really sure what I'll be doing on this blog, maybe a bit of everything, but let's wait and see. I can't wait to start this adventure.

See you next time, Maia x